so today i decided to cook for once because i got hungry and ran out of frozen foods. i found a couple salmon fillets and was like, “…well alright.”
and because i don’t cook i have no recipes, but hunger drives me to kinda take whatever i have and experiment so here’s a sort-of recipe for a successful attempt at fire&ice baked salmon :B i made that up, because one’s a dull burning sort of spicy and the other is like honey/tea and it somehow actually is capable of removing the burn. so individually they’re kinda weird but together they will rule the world. or, at least, be tasty. and you don’t need milk!
for the fire side i melted a couple tablespoons of butter and added some seafood soy sauce, then 4 packets of chili sauce from panda express ‘cause that shit is delicious and i had some so hey why not :B and then added in some random amount of peppers kinda like the kind they have for you to put on pizzas at restaurants. and then i think i added some red vinegar? anyway, rubbed that on one filet and sprinkled garlic pepper + cheese. also i threw in some tic tacs for minty freshness but i can’t taste them anywhere so oh well.
then for the ice side i put jasmine tea leaves, honey, a teaspoon of sugar, and a teaspoon-ish of cornstarch in a bowl with hot water, mixed it up, and (after salting that filet) rubbed it on there. and then a bunch of white pepper and a little cheese.
then baked it at 400C covered with foil for like 7 mins, uncovered at 325 for 15 mins, and back to 400 for another 5 mins.
and they’re not dry! wooooooo.
anyway this is more just for personal reference than anything but i’m glad they didn’t come out tasting horrible because that would’ve just been a terrible waste of salmon fillets. i really should follow tried and true methods for things like these but i think i just get lucky.
i was daydreaming, and looking at my hands and arms rather dismissively, the way i do sometimes when i daydream. frequently, my eyes will land on old scars, and i’ll start to think about them — where they came from, what had happened, how old i’d been.
there’s one scar on my left pinkie whose story i remember very vividly.
the story of this particular scar usually flashes through my mind quickly, but today, for some inexplicable reason, it decided to hover around for a while. in the seconds that followed, a strong sense of curiosity unraveled, preceded only by a short stab of guilt.
in seventh grade, there was a kid in my class named andrew. all i remember about him was that he was japanese, and that the other kids liked to make fun of him a lot. i don’t know if this is actually what happened, but it’s the feeling i remember, which is all the truth i have to go on now, isn’t it? i remember we had many mutual friends, or perhaps, “friends.” they made fun of his japanese name, taunting him repeatedly. when you’re that age, jokes like those never grow old. it was terrible. even then i remember feeling a bit sad about it. i don’t remember if i ever made fun of him myself, but i’d thought he was a nice kid. quiet, maybe, but nice.
sometime that year (it was a nice sunny day, so probably sometime in the spring near the end of school).. maybe it was because we’d been discussing weaponry, or slingshots specifically, or something like that.. i went to school expecting nothing, as always. during lunch that day, he pulled out a large, Y-shaped branch from his backpack. it was cut a bit crudely, and there were still knots along its surface, but it was sturdy, and it was a slingshot!
“i made this for you.”
that quote may or may not have happened, but that was the implication i felt. he might have just said, “here.” or maybe even nothing at all.
that afternoon, i took the slingshot home and stored it quickly away in my room lest my parents recognize its identity as a proper weapon. however, when it came time for dinner, i couldn’t stop fidgeting in my seat. there was no way i was going to go that long (after receiving such a prized gift) without making sure it was still alright. i asked to go to my room for a bit “to grab something” (hah, i still use that excuse now). what if it had somehow been stolen, or broken and snapped in half during the four hours it sat in my drawer? these were real fears, i assure you.
in any case, i went upstairs and carefully brought it out to examine. i held the handle in my hands, and wished it were smoother, when suddenly.. AN IDEA!
middle school was my prime model-making phase. it follows, then, that i had easy access to various hobby knives. you know how adults are always going on about not letting children near knives? yeah, it’s probably much safer (that said, however, i’m totally giving my kid knives).
welp, 7th grade me thought it would be a great, spontaneous idea to take that knife and shave off the bark from the damn slingshot handle. that night, i learned the hard way why keeping body parts away from the knife’s path of destruction is generally the smart thing to do. needless to say, i totally sliced my pinkie open, down to the bone. and it totally started bleeding.
i’ve never been afraid of blood, so it was easy to stay calm as my finger peed profusely onto the carpet. i don’t think the pain had really set in yet. plus, there were more pressing matters to attend to: how the fuck do i explain this to my parents? i had to go back to dinner. shit.
in the end, i settled on the best excuse i could come up with, tossed the knife back into my drawer and headed back downstairs, finger dripping all over the goddamn place.
“mooooommmmmm, i gave myself a papercut with a highlights booooookkkkk…..”
yeah, highlights. remember those? dangerous. i swear.
i have no idea whether they really believed me or not, but they sure acted the part. i think they probably just couldn’t think of a better explanation, y’know? it healed after a while, and i got this scar, and the story to boot. anyway, the slingshot is still in my room, in the closet, in a box somewhere.
oh, right. so what happened to the kid? well, the only other thing i remember about him is that when we were in 8th grade, he sat next to me in art class. he was good, i remember that much. he made this painting once, and the only thing i can recall clearly is that it featured killer whales. i complimented it, because killer whales are badass. i think he shyly thanked me.
after we’d all “graduated” from middle school, he left hercules forever. no one knew where to, no one knew why. we just knew he was gone. some said he’d gone back to japan, some said he’d died.
so the point of this post. it got me thinking about that kid, and i started wondering how he was doing. what was he up to these days? i even went back to take a look at his xanga. oh, xanga. and then, after deciding i’d never know anything more about this guy than what middle-school me remembered, mark zuckerberg bitchslapped me with facebook. i was like, “oh, duh.”
i looked him up, and lo and behold, he’d gone back to japan for high school and college. he still looks approximately the same, so my memory has served me well. part of me wants to add him and see if he remembers the slingshot. the other part of me thinks that’s creepy.
it’s creepy, right?
GTLDA Spring Banquet 2012 - JEM Medley
Accidentally In Love (Counting Crows)
Living on a Prayer (Bon Jovi)
One Thing (One Direction)
@leshugitout, @mattnguyen, and I performing as JEM for banquet :)
The awkward moment when you’re stargazing in the middle of the street, and a bright light from someone’s window shines straight on you…
awkward. No one called out, no one said anything to us. The light just followed us back to our car. Seriously? LOLOL.
I wanted to throw a rock at the window. Meanies. It’s summer, it’s hot, and it was a perfect night to go stargazing!!
seriously, super creepy.
i was at costco, grabbing some lamb chops and strawberries for my parents. i zoomed straight from the entrance to the meats section, threw four racks into my cart, and headed directly to the fruit area for strawberries. i took a pack of strawberries and remembered that my dad had also asked me to get a box of grapes.
as i headed over to the grapes section, this man standing alone nearby — he was probably in his late 50’s or 60’s — turned to me and said, “Hi. You know how to shop.”
I looked at him, confused. Strange compliment. Also, he didn’t have a cart, any groceries, or family members nearby, as far as I could tell.
“I was watching you, and you really know how to shop. Not many people do.”
“Watching you.” Creeeeepy. That made me become slightly wary, so I gave him a tentative “haha, thanks” as I started walking away towards the grapes. He followed me.
I picked up a box.
“You know, I went to Japan once, it’s a wonderful place.”
Sigh, Japan. I bet he thinks I’m Japanese.
A bit annoyed, I humored him. “Really? Yeah, Japan’s nice. I’ve been there once, myself..” I suddenly felt an overwhelming sense of injustice.
“…But ah, I’m not Japanese.” For some reason, my earlier wariness had all but disappeared.
He had a surprised look on his face as he asked, where was my family from, then?
“Oh, yes, yes, the Chinese are interesting people, yes.”
How do I even respond to tha-..
“So where do you live?”
“Uh, the bay area.” I realized this was redundant since we were at the Richmond Costco and debated clarifying my answer, but as he started to respond, I became increasingly interested in scrutinizing the grapes.
I don’t really remember what happened after that, but he eventually walked away. I think my dad might’ve called or something.
Anyway, afterwards, I felt sort of bad and wondered if he was really just a nice guy trying to make conversation. Is it sad that I’ve been hardwired to be on edge around certain demographics? Technically, I was stereotyping him the same way he did to me. Maybe I should’ve just given him a chance to talk about Japan and the bay and interesting Chinese people, or why he’d thought I was good at shopping.
After paying for my groceries, I walked back to the car wondering if I would have responded the same way to a younger guy asking the same questions less creepily (or just less directly). I thought back to the Sac State student from the Hotdogger who’d impressed me with his ability to make conversation with the strangers he served. Perhaps this guy was just an awkward, tact-less old man.
In the old days where everyone in a town knew everyone else, this wouldn’t have been a problem. I probably would’ve stopped and had a long talk with the guy, maybe offered him grapes or asked if he knew how to pick the good ones.
Maybe he was a friendly guy, and maybe I had shot down his faith in humanity.
Or maybe he was just a creep. Well, better safe than sorry.
- @kerpanda: there's this bug here...
- me: WHERE *springs into bug-killing mode*
- @kerpanda: *points* its just been wiggling its butt at me!
- me: *attempts to kill, turns paper over to check and... it flies out and away somewhere* /sad
- @kerpanda: aw, i kinda liked having a study buddy..
- me: *did not process sentence, goes back to sit down and study*
- a few minutes later
- me: wait, did you say you liked having a study buddy? like, the bug?
- @kerpanda: yeah! it was, like, encouraging me with its wiggling butt!
- me: ....
@liliumbell and i were singing naruto songs yesterday and Alive got stuck in my head, so here’s an impromptu fingerstyle version. *inserts filler chord strumming since i can’t rap*
here’s the original
i need to not mess up in front of the camera -___-
the best day i’ve had in a while. woke up in the morning (albeit late…) to go visit @bencachadog while he was studying in starbucks. haven’t seen him in so long :[ next time hopefully we’ll be able to chill for more than 10 minutes… sorry! /sadface
but yeah, then went off to go participate in GTLDA scavenger hunt! SUPER FUN. ‘twas a quest to find clues that led us all over campus, and was decently challenging enough to make us all competitive. our team (@rainingspades, me, david, quan, and @chae-min) came in second place, but congrats to the winners! :) then ended the hunt with a water balloon fight which was epic mostly because it was super hot and we dried off hella quick, haha.
trying really really hard to close an eye
“draw a picture of lion dance”
then chill with @terbro for a while, get jamba juice (SO GOOD), and go home to shower/change/get ready for banquet, yay! THEN BANQUET.
“JEM”, lawl -________- performed! fucked up on guitar solo ;-; SAD TIMES YO. but its k!
THIS GUY. the other pictures of him were too ugly :B
alder picture, hahaha :D
dragons can lion dance too :)
then we just hung outside and loitered for a while (as usual with this damn club, hahah, it’s an art) and went home.
and now this.
YEP GOOD DAY.
i am proud to say that i have totally done this before. without the “breaking everything” portion. ramen in coffeepots for the fucking win.
this is back in junior year of high school while on a trip to disneyland with the music department, haha :)
i was reminded of a time
when i was in middle school, and in band. i think that day, we had just started learning a new song that was “too easy.” students started complaining a bit, saying that we could play something that was harder and more fun. i must say that i agreed with everyone else at first, because i’ve always loved a challenge, and playing something so simple seemed like a terrible idea.
but then our band director got everyone to quiet down and asked if we thought we could play the piece perfectly, no mistakes. a few people spoke up, but we all knew it wasn’t true. he asked us for the most simple song we could think of. someone said “twinkle twinkle little star.”
and in response, he said that if a band was truly good, they could take a song like twinkle twinkle little star and still make it sound amazing.
this comes to mind every time i think i’ve “mastered” any sort of skill. can i take the basics and execute them to perfection? has it become second nature? no? not good enough.
just a thought.